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nobody.
i feel like there is a hole in my chest. a black hole that is sucking me inside turning me into nothing.
it feels so lonly like acid in my vains... fuck...
what is wrong with me? am i so unplesent? so ugly? so stupid?
sometimes it's like i'm just a shadow passing throug. i don't want any body that just happens to come along, i don't want vain relations, but is that all left for me?
today i'm going to sleep with a rocklike heart.
i don't whant to dry up inside.
i don't want to be alone
i feel like there is a hole in my chest. a black hole that is sucking me inside turning me into nothing.
it feels so lonly like acid in my vains... fuck...
what is wrong with me? am i so unplesent? so ugly? so stupid?
sometimes it's like i'm just a shadow passing throug. i don't want any body that just happens to come along, i don't want vain relations, but is that all left for me?
today i'm going to sleep with a rocklike heart.
i don't whant to dry up inside.
i don't want to be alone
Time goes by
I haven't been around for some years... time does go by.
Haven't done as mutch as i should, but hey.
Have a new blog with my dirty little drawings in it and decided to make a deviant about it aswell - i like to keep it apart.
Some friends call it "blog with cocks"
oh well, hope that you that is reading this is having a nice day and i'll port something. promisse, but now i really have to go to work :)
http://www.hiddenbook.blogspot.com
Surreal note
"We hope that the students will overcome the school shortcomings and flaws with their own creativity"
That is what my college director said in a local newspaper about the lack in software - there isn't a single computer with photoshop, freehand, illustrator, quark or indesign... nothing!!!
There are classes suspended because of that.
And there are none because the existing software had expierd their licence.
And its the students tht must solve the problem? Well, we will survive, but one thing is saving our asses, another is a proper education with the proper tools that the area demands.
It's like cirurgy with no instruments.
i'm really
On a mission
Ok, i just saw some deviants gallerys and i was blowned away.
And it wasn't just the visual pleasure that comes from viewing great work and great tallent, but also some envy. The good kind. The kind that makes you think "i must work harder".
I lost some of my drawing rotine for the last 2/3 years... that's the truth, and i feel a bit behind of what i could be doing right now.
i think i'm getting a cold... damn this bipolar weather.
Another year
Final year at collage, i hope. After that no one knows.
Maybe Lisbon, working, taking some classes on web design related software, and then off to the UK, Germany, Spain and finaly coming back.
I don't know really.
Feeling kinda lonely.
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eu tb ando assim e chato e uma porcaria, parece que somos bichos, e é por isso que as coisas pura e simplesmente nao acontecem, mas mesmo assim acho q ja me importei mais, agora nao levo tanto a peito, ja me habituei a solidao
sim tb ja tentei tacticas «agressivas» mas bah resulta sempre em desastre, bah olha ainda no outro dia levei uma tampa de um gajo, combinou cmg ir a uma exposição e faltou... nem me disse nada ve la tu... ainda por cima fui aquelas exposições do pavilhao do conhecimento onde tu TENS DE TAR ACOMPANHADA com UM AMIGO!!!
se nao nao fazem sentido nenhum, cenas onde diz la mesmo «exprimenta com o teu amigo» -> uau! que frustração!
ainda por cima o funcionário coitado a ajudar-me numa experiencia teve a bela tirada : Bom voce deve fazer isso com UM AMIGO!!! » lololol nao podia estar mais correcto
mas la esta apesar destas cenas ate nem acho q sou uma garina feia ate tenho um que de gaja boa, o problema acho que esta em eu nao gostar la muito do conteudo da gaja boa, ainda nao tenho fe em mim e nas minhas capacidades, e posto isto o resultado esta a vista, uma bilheteira solteirona que nem pra tia da pq nao tenho irmaos! lolol
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sim tb ja tentei tacticas «agressivas» mas bah resulta sempre em desastre, bah olha ainda no outro dia levei uma tampa de um gajo, combinou cmg ir a uma exposição e faltou... nem me disse nada ve la tu... ainda por cima fui aquelas exposições do pavilhao do conhecimento onde tu TENS DE TAR ACOMPANHADA com UM AMIGO!!!
se nao nao fazem sentido nenhum, cenas onde diz la mesmo «exprimenta com o teu amigo» -> uau! que frustração!
ainda por cima o funcionário coitado a ajudar-me numa experiencia teve a bela tirada : Bom voce deve fazer isso com UM AMIGO!!! » lololol nao podia estar mais correcto
mas la esta apesar destas cenas ate nem acho q sou uma garina feia ate tenho um que de gaja boa, o problema acho que esta em eu nao gostar la muito do conteudo da gaja boa, ainda nao tenho fe em mim e nas minhas capacidades, e posto isto o resultado esta a vista, uma bilheteira solteirona que nem pra tia da pq nao tenho irmaos! lolol
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